UNEVEN BUT SADLY TRUE...

I don’t know but life is sucking like anything. As earlier also written that I cann’t go ahead with this lady which whom I have been tied to in relation ship.

Uneven mood charges is taking place, the moment I am hearing her voice, from last 3 days or the moment I see her I thought go blank . Due to family pressure I do not utter any word to her but the frustration is coming out to someone else. In the morning I was harse on my bro and in the evening on my sis. Both of them were tears in their eye due to my behavior. I otherwise have not made then cry due to my words.

Somewhere mental imbalance stage is what I am in. That’s for sure that I can not leave with this girl for life long. And if I try to live with her, I will have such mental imbalance phase. And apart from that extra martial affair will surely be on card, why because every one want to behave like a kid in someones front, every man had a feeling that his lady may able to control his little kid inside, and every man wants to be friendly with the same mental level.

I up till now was not intimated with anyone but seeing this situation I am sure that this can not be a long hold stage. Those thing which I don’t wanted , I had been compelled to do.

I don’t know which way I will lead.. at times my life seems finish … For whom I have to be hear??? WHY I have to leave?? this question hovers in the mind.

The relation of parents also seems to be losing its respect. My mental stage is going to such an extent where thing are hard to control from my conscious end.

I dont know why I am not abel to control my mind. Almighty plan are hard to understand.