Uneven Sentimental Change.........

It can often happen when u r hurt Sentimentally that you start feeling something otherwise.

Someone who is very close to U, and you anyhow want to have a meeting with her either personally or on phone..... U are desperate till the time u don't have a talk with. U feel something missing kind of till u have heard the voice. The moment u hear the same u are ready to end the day peacefully, otherwise u are having the cell in your hand for each second and U force your attention after and again after only to cross check that have not u received the call or the cell in not in silent mode knowing even that u have put it in vibrating or loud mode. That's the king of feeling which makes you so childish.

U R habituated to call each day or the alternate day knowing that u are not into any sort of affair or relationship but still the space in the as such which is not less than the committed relation. That's the type of relationship, I too had.

Some word really hurt and it hurt more than a bullet when u are compared unfairly with someone. ( might be with a committed one) .
When you had a conversion like...

'Saw your snap and was laughing on it...." and when asked about the reason,

"U are looking to have put down extra weight .... Thoda exercise... Walking chalu kar lo........."

"Usseya Kya Jerry ko to mai pasand hu. Use to ache lagti hu........"

"What shit is this, mai to suggestion de raha hu" ....and the response

" U better keep your suggestion with u only"

Now this is ridiculous. first, the unfair comparison, are bhai duniya bus ek hi jagah simat ke rah gaye hai kya?????

This although not a big Issue creater statement, but it hurted me a lot and from that day onwards somewhere a strong feeling of not calling started to genrate........ Everytime I wanted to call the statement run through the mind that it has been just said, and it forces to restrict, even if I wanted internally to call, to talk but this strong feeling of comparison somewhere throw you in the side basket and u somehow try to stop it.

I don't know whether it is correct or wrong doing, but that is how I am ....as said by my known one

"agar iske kuch aacha nahi lagta hai to yeh dire dire apne aap ko side kar leta hai ... not demanding a why or something"

although few of them suggested that I should ask for something which I felt bad for but unfortunately, I can't do it and I decide the action. In the above case too, it happened and the reason is ................ :-(